The true meaning of "us"

I have learned so many things from you, beloved... Starting from the very first days I met you, the days that you taught again how to appreciate life with the simple fact of being the amazing way you are. In those days I have seen how you were welcoming the mornings with your hands up in the air, I have seen so many people greeting you and being honestly happy to see you again, I have felt the peace that is part of your essence and that could be felt in your presence, I have felt the empathy, the honesty and the wisdom that you put in every discussion, I have seen you smiling all the time, but also being serious and so beautifully focused when needed, I have discovered your creativity, sensitivity and deepness when you told me about imagining your life like a book with chapters and pages and in that unforgettable night when we talked about the sky, the universe and that Mexican ritual that was illustrating our discussion.

And after that, every time I had the chance to get closer and closer to you and to get to know you better and better, you have taught me so many things by the way you were thinking and by the way you were behaving. You have taught me kindness in many situations when my reactions were of selfishness (like that time [although not only that time, but countless times], when I didn't wash your swimming dress, but you did wash mine), you have taught me how to be playful and allowing the creativity to grow and fly in these playful little reactions and little discussion that we have by ourselves and even with others (like when you have funny names in our dailies), you have taught me how to be loyal even in the little things of daily life (like when you always play in a team-like manner in our boardgames, not wanting to hurt me not even in those virtual situations or when you refuse to do something if I am not doing it either), you have taught me how be a true philosopher by appreciating the immensity of little things and thinking and thinking so much and about so many things when being in social situation, when being with your beloved or even when being alone, in the darkness and listening to the fireplace sounds. You have taught me what braveness is by coming to the other side of the world to live in a country where even talking its language is scary just for wanting to improve your condition and for wanting a better life. You have taught me how to pay attention to the little things, to observe the details around you, the little nuances that makes a difference, but that no many people are capable of observing.

But the most unexpected thing that you have thought me is the true meaning of us... I was not even aware that I didn't know what means to be truly with someone, to share honestly and totally yourself, until you taught me again and again in so many situations. When I was getting sad and I was hiding inside myself, building a wall around me, you were gently spreading an arm to show to me that I am not alone, that I can trust you to share even my sad feelings, because together everything is easier to overcome. You have taught me something that no one could: to share the responsibility of money. I have the bad tendency to pay for everything, but your decision to talk about it, to find ways how we can confront this instinct of mine proved me that, no matter how well rooted an irrational behavior can be, I can un-learn it slowly, but surely by your side. You have taught me that being with someone is making her a priority in your life, above anything and everything; it's thinking about a future by her side and fighting and taking decisions accordingly, to give a shape to that future, to try to make it happen; it's sharing with her all the details of every day, because life is made by the little pieces of every second, of every hour, and sharing them is sharing life; it's being accomplice with her by telling things that no one knows and thus building a shared world, inaccessible by outside, because it's surrounded by a wall of trust; it's paying attention to what she says not only to the words, which you so impressively do, but to the true meaning that hides behind them; it's learning her language, because you want to share your feelings through the channel that she used the most to experienced this life.

You have taught me that us means that I am not longer alone. And as obvious it might sounds, for me it was not obvious at all. You have thought me that everything I do in the area of myself it can also impact us and that myself and us are no longer different. I was not protecting us when I was hiding myself deep, deep in a hole, cutting the access and building barrier, what I was doing was proving that I don't know what us means. Because us is a stunningly immense and complex garden that can not survive without the joint care of two gardeners and that many flowers and trees will suffer when one of the gardeners is leaving, letting the other one alone, confused and overwhelmed.

I couldn't see it in the beginning, like a human can't think the unimaginable, like he can't understand how it could be to live without time, or like he can't imagine how a 4-dimensional cube looks like. I couldn't see it, because I didn't know that I didn't know it. But I have learned it, amor, I have learned the true meaning of us like a flower learns to survive by embracing the warm, invigorating, steady rays of sun: I have embraced your acts of love and I have learned the true meaning of us... of nosotros... of noi.

The connection between two minds

I am a skeptical person and I don't believe in telepathy. Although an appealing idea, there are no facts or experiments to support it. What I do believe in, though, because of you, my love, is in the connection between two minds.      

A connection which is possible because of and with love. Love is the waves that carry the information from one mind to another and which allows the channels between them to be clear.  Because love is the feeling that makes you reveal yourself in the most honest way possible. You offer yourself naked and vulnerable so the other one can really see you and so he can have access to all your thoughts, which most of the time remain unrevealed in the shallow connections with most of the people around you.

In the same time, you clear the channels between you and the other, by letting your mind to be open when the other one is offering himself to you. And not only that, but you actively search to understand him. And when all that you discover in him satisfies your deepest dreams and desires, you feed that craving to explore him more and more, in many situations, regarding many topics and aspects.

So when this two states are to be found in both persons, then the amazing miracle of a connection between two minds is possible. If those two persons have already the same answers to the existential dilemmas and if they think alike about the most fundamental aspects of life, then the communication can be even more clear and efficient and the connection stronger.Those two minds get to know each other, their textures, the way of functioning and even though they do not and can not know each other 100% because of their complexity and of their continuous change, the intuition about each other is an impressive side effect. In this point the two lovers can think about each other in approximately the same moment of the day, they start to propose to do activities that the other one also wants around the same time.

Nevertheless, I must admit that I don't completely understand the phenomenon and it perplexes me. It gave me the awe that people have when thinking about god: it's like a miracle beyond my comprehension, that impresses me so much while giving me such a pure and intense happiness! It sometimes make me think and feel that love is another force of nature that can have a physical impact on its carriers. It's a force that gives sense of meaning and purpose to the lovers, its action span is on great distances, can conquer, manipulate even go beyond time, stimulates creativity so is the source of many objects (art pieces, novels, songs, studies, poems) and events in society, makes the lovers to improve themselves, to become better, even the best version of themselves and, not the least, obliterates the borders of the self while melting with other self to create the "us". Only by learning how to give, the core action of being kind, you can transcend yourself to touch the other.

For all this amazing miracles I do believe that love is a yet unstudied, but very present force in the universe and that because of it two minds can be connected in a totally different level than the one we are used with when we are alone.

 Learn to love, love to love and you will have access to this earthly, but so divine dimension!

First snow

The color of the snow is the color of purity. When everything is covered in the light white of snow it's like the worldly things are hidden below a layer of dreamy clouds of heaven. To stay and contemplate the touched by no feet snow is to live in a timeless moment of peace and serenity. To get lost in watching the soft and fairytale-like dance of the big snowflakes in the air is to be the witness of a miracle: the wondrous gift of Earth for its tiny, playful humans.          
               
But to have them all by the side of the one, unique heart in this Universe that you love, is like dipping your soul in the sweetness of a real dream. It's like life fulfills its destiny and floods the divine winter journey of the two luckiest hearts with its essence and all its mysteries and answers.

Thank you, my beloved, for offering me your pure love in the purity of the snow ! For letting your mind, heart and fantasies to discover the white miracle, to freely play with it and to bravely trust it in the manner you did. Thank you for letting me be part of your first snow, for allowing and trusting me to be your guide. And thank you for seeing its beauty and for sharing the wonder that kindled in your heart ! I hope to have the chance to see that truly happy and amazed look that mirrors your sensitive heart in as many winters and in as many days  as possible !

The poems of our daily lives

The daily life is a poem written not in words, but in actions, whose rhymes are not made from syllables, but from the feelings we choose to color our day, whose authors are each of us and whose readers are the people with which we interact. But unlike any other poem, our daily life can mingle with our beloved’s one to create waltzing lyrics, jointed meaning and an amplified echo of experiences. 

My daily life with you it’s not a routine, but it’s life itself at its highest peaks, in its raw and pure form, in its intense and miraculous existence. All the little things in all the little days become giants events and great pieces of art that, even though they might not be expressed in words, they are whispered by the hands that caress, they are screamed by the eyes that absorb, they are sing by the heart that melts, they are painted by the mind that is mesmerized.

Let’s try to write together our daily life poems with our love as the muse and our actions as the ink and try to cause a smile for the most important readers of these poems: the future us!

To boldy go where only love has gone before

Since I met you, my universe has expanded astronomically and I have started an exploration with wonder, hope and confidence in my heart. You are the warp drive that makes my heart gain speeds greater than light so I am able to explore strange, new worlds.

You are the captain of my starship that gives me strength in weak moments, that encourages me in insecure periods of time, that inspires me to become the best version of myself, that helps me to control my feelings when in mission with others, but also allows me, even encourages me to have the freedom to be and express myself. You are the captain by whose side I want to explore this universe full of wonders and I want to be your science officer, to be of help in any moment you need support, or ideas, or advices and to understand together the interesting phenomenons that we encounter in our path. But I want to be a betazoid science officer, a creature that is also able to be empathic with any emotions that you may have, to suffer when you are sad, to smile when you are happy, to be enthusiast when you are full of energy and hope, to be strong when you have fears and doubts.

Our starship’s name won’t be Enterprise, but Love. Our crew will be the the emotions with which we choose to surround ourselves and our map will be the memories that we are creating in our voyage and the dreams toward which we aim. Our enemies will be our fears and doubts, which will try to slow or stumble us, but one of our goals will be to learn to make them allies. Together we are part of the Federation of Earthlings and while we travel in the distant corners of the known universe, we will try to stick to the rules it has, but also to be flexible enough and open-minded not to allow this rules to interfere with our desire to explore the unknown.

Our primary mission is to boldly go where only love has gone before ! So let’s embark in our precious and powerful starship, choose a valuable crew, create a wide and trustful map and with our mission in our heart let's... Engage !

When words are not enough

When words are not enough, you start searching for alternative ways of expressing your inner contents. Then the hands want to touch with so much care and affection as almost not to disturb in the smallest way the perfect form of the other one; the lips want to press against the softness of the other one's lips in a timeless kiss, because the inside feelings, now liquefied, are like a never-ending river that wants to overflow into the other's heart; the arms want to hug so tight because the body is dissolving under the strong force of attraction and wants to mix with the other's one being giving birth to a new life form: the couple. The eyes want to be fed with the other one's angelic face, with his honest, friendly, out-of-this world smile and with his deep, wise eyes that speak of a side of the universe never-heard before. The heart wants to put herself into every behavior, gesture, thought and idea about the other one like the cook need to put his vital and secret spice in every dish that he creates and like the artist inevitably leaves a trail of his being in every artistic act, offering himself in return of giving birth to a new artwork.

Words are not enough anymore when love descends from heaven into one's heart. You realize then that the words are only some humble servants, with their limits and even if you would learn every language in the world, it still won't be enough... Because love is not only the mind's offspring, but also heart's precious treasure and body's intense craving. And although the mind tries to translate its thoughts, soon reaches its limits with a sudden shock and becomes muted. The rescue then can be found in the other centers of your being that are housing this ineffable feeling. And when all of them are incapacitated because of the evil time-space distance, then love is burning inside and pressure is accumulating in a dangerous level so that the beloved one must be warned of the chaotic, unleashed explosion that will undoubtedly occur at the next contact.

So be aware, lovers from around the universe! If you are so loved by someone, but her feeling is restrained and folded back inside, the torment inside her will flow with great energy like in a waterfall: from the peak of the mountain that tries to reach the sky until deep of the earth.

Love is...

Resisting the slowest and most agonizing minutes in the airport after a long period in which we haven’t seen each other.

The urge to hug you so tight and to dive into your arms so deep that we could mingle in one amorphous being with the texture of love.

Closing my eyes and feeling your soft lips so mindful that their touch instantly kindle my body and throw myself in a complete amnesia about time and space.

The feeling of adoration that fill my body when I contemplate the deep look of your dark, brown eyes with a divine halo caused by the kindness, sensitivity and intelligence of your heart.

The desire that arises in my whole being to do everything possible to bring a smile on your divine face and joy on your immensely kind heart, genuinely understanding the flavor of altruism. My heart feeding with your happiness.

The way you make me feel so feminine when you firmly grab me with desire by my hips and offer me a godlike kiss.

Changing sides like in a waltz while we walk so you can be on the street side and protect me from any possible danger.

You always being so polite and answering with a smile and with a sweet voice to the waiters and to everybody around you.

Your passion for languages and your struggle to learn new words so you can express yourself as freely as you can in my native language.

You surrendering to coffee as you would transcend this world and you would reach eternal tranquility.

You patiently waiting by my side while I prepare with love a rich breakfast, trying to offer you all that I have starting with the dawn of every new day.

You waking up in the middle of the night and then gently helping me cross the land of dreams toward reality with desire’s aid.

Feeling so complete when we finally fall asleep, with your hand placed below my pillow, after a full day of exploring the world together.

Being myself so naturally in your presence, even from the moment we met, and not having the need to recharge my energy in my loneliness.

The wave of creativity that you arouse in me every day which is so welcomed as the desert plants are welcoming a nutritious rain after a long period of drought.

Your philosophy of appreciating the immensity of little things that matches with my endeavor to assimilate as mindful as I can every aspect of this life.

Your artistic essence that manifest itself in your sensitivity, in your deep, beautiful, lyric writings, in your feelings, in the way you observe the world, in the way you see life, in your philosophy, in your attitude and which made me fall in love with you.

Your passion for computers that makes you to stay in touch with reality in a logical, scientific and skeptical manner, which satisfies my appreciation for science and which allows me to share with you my interest for astronomy and my view regarding the Universe.

Your incredible generosity that makes you sacrifice yourself to help your family or any other person that asks for your help and which makes me adore you so much and fill my heart of gratitude for your existence.

You, being loved by all the people, because your emotional intelligence makes you an incredible friendly person and makes you spread a warm light around you which pierces everybody’s heart.

The way your manly body makes me surrender to your desire, alters my reality and makes me transcend it in the paroxysm of pleasure.

Being the sunshine that pulled me out from a cloudy path and helped me to remember how it is to be alive just by your beautiful smile and by your habit of raising your hands in the air.